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SOON TO BE A MAJOR FILM PRODUCED BY JULIA ROBERTS

Nothing is as permanent as it appears…

Denver, 1962
Kitty Miller has come to terms with her unconventional single life.
She loves the bookshop she runs with her best friend, Frieda, and enjoys complete control over her day-to-day existence.

Then the dreams begin.

Denver, 1963
Katharyn Andersson is married to Lars, the love of her life.
They have beautiful children, an elegant home, and good friends.
It’s everything Kitty Miller once believed she wanted – but it only exists when she sleeps. Convinced that these dreams are simply due to her overactive imagination, Kitty enjoys her nighttime forays into this alternate world.

But with each visit, the more irresistibly real Katharyn’s life becomes.

Can she choose which life she wants? If so, what is the cost of staying Kitty, or becoming Katharyn?

A hauntingly powerful novel that freshly considers the timeless question – ‘What if?’

Reviews

Cynthia Swanson's novel will make you think about the paths you could have taken - but even more so, what you can learn from them to make your reality richer
Redbook Magazine
Swanson masterfully crafts both Kitty's and Katharyn's worlds, leaving open the question of which of them is real until the final pages. Swanson's evocative novel freshly considers the timeless question, What if?
Publishers Weekly
The novel delivers on its fantasy scenario like a modern-day fairy tale... proves highly satisfying
USA Today
Dexterously traversing past and present, fact and fiction, Swanson's clever first novel ingeniously explores the inventive ways the human spirit copes with trauma
Booklist
This is a stunner of a debut novel, astonishingly tight and fast paced. The 1960s tone is elegant and even, and Kitty/Katharyn's journey is intriguing... This will especially resonate with fans of the movie Sliding Doors and the authors Anna Quindlen and Anita Shreve
Library Journal, starred review
Swanson's debut novel is slightly mysterious and thoroughly engrossing, one of those books that will stay with the reader long after it is complete
Romantic Times
This is the story of a woman coming to terms with who she is; both woman and novel are beautiful
Shelf Awareness
An accomplished first novel. It is interesting, intriguing, and ultimately satisfying
New York Journal of Books
The Bookseller kept me gripped right to the end
Miranda's Notebook